Friday, July 29, 2016
I found out later that my daughter's mom told my sister that "it was a horrible way for my daughter to find out I was dating someone."
I still don't know how my daughter found out. Eventually I told her mother by text that I didn't know how my daughter found out. She didn't comment.
Thursday, July 28, 2016
I'm going back east so I asked about seeing my daughter. I asked her mom if she thought it was worth trying because it was clear from my last visit that my daughter didn't want to see me. They won't be in town so it ended up being a non-issue, but her mom did acknowledge that my daughter seemed a little standoffish when I visited.
I was hoping her mom could give me some advice, but she told me she's stepping out of it and leaving relationship with my daughter up to us. I don't know what to do.
I told her mom that I haven't been asking my daughter any questions ever since she (mom) told me that my daughter told her she doesn't like it. It doesn't feel right.
I've stopped posting in my adoption group. The adoptive moms are having all these crises with their kids, and my problem seems so little. Last time, they told me it was the age, but all the other kids of the birthmoms and adoptive moms in the group that are the same age as my daughter still have strong birthfamily relationships. I've thought about writing my daughter a letter, but I don't know what to say.
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
I go on vacation with the guy I'm dating and wake up one night from a dream about my daughter. I hate being disconnected from her. I hate not being able to tell her how important she is to me. I hate the distance.
Tuesday, July 26, 2016
Monday, July 25, 2016
Then, someone asked. I wasn't prepared. I told him it was a story for another time. The next morning I texted him and told him I'd really like to answer his question, but that I wanted to do it in person.
It went well. We are still dating, and he is supportive in the right way.